I have to admit that I desire to submit to Angie. This is the deeper part of my motivations to explore a new dynamic with Angie. I am not a submissive in my daily life. I am a type A personality, and have always taken charge in any job, project, or collaborative effort I have been involved with. It is just that I get a profound sense of satisfaction from knowing I’ve made Angie happy. It was always this way. My college buddies used to call me pussy whipped because I would drop whatever I was doing to go with Angie if she came into the picture at that moment. It’s still that way. The girl still jazzes me.
We have arrived at a place where Angie is processing my stated interests in a non-vanilla lifestyle that extends into being her sexual sub, and supporting her decision, if ever, to seek sexual liaisons with other men. Taking control of me sexually brings a visceral thrill that I have reconciled, and openly admitted to her. In keeping with the tenets of the philosophy of female control in the marriage, I do not even feel a need to argue with her, and things are pretty smooth. I don’t even masturbate any more because I want to save all my energy for her. Interestingly, I find I like the building tension of going without relief for several days at a time. The first time we had sex with no release for me, I kind of went into subspace. Cool feeling, if somewhat uncomfortable in the testicles. Angie liked having that control too. But she still wants me to cum inside her every time we do it because it is so pleasurable for her.
Who am I to argue?
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